I’ve been away from my blog for a while. Not because I’ve lost confidence in my blog (or really my writing), but because I’d lost some confidence in myself. I’ve been in a state of flux for the past month not really knowing where to take my writing career from here, but I finally have a plan in place (thanks in part to lots of people in my life).
Actually, it’s been horrible being a bit adrift creatively and not really knowing where I was heading. But I started this blog to track my progress from being only part of the way through a novel to invariably get it published. Whether I self-publish, or if I’m lucky enough to get backing from a publisher that actually feels like my modest little supernatural crime-thriller deserves to be on the shelves, I will one day have this published.
To that end, I have come up with something of a loose plan, which first of all means I have to edit Haunt one more time. Just a quick toss-over to change some little bits. Actually, it’s probably important to mention that Haunt has had it’s first ever beginning-to-end read-through from a very dear friend of mine. I trust her opinion and she told me what I didn’t imagine I would hear… That it was really good.
I also enlisted a sample service of a professional editor, who edited the first few pages of my novel for me and gave me some pointers, and who actually read (and subsequently gave feedback on) the whole first part of my novel. Probably the thing that stunned me the most was that the editor had no idea that Stephen King is an idol of mine, but loosely stated that my writing is similar to King’s. They also said, and I quote, that it is “very well written.”
So that was really all I needed to remind myself that all these years of hard work and all the effort I’ve put in to my writing is actually worth it. Whether I find success this year or in the next 5 years (or the next 25!) I am determined to reach my goal. But one important thing I’ve realised this year is that, in the meantime, I have to my backup. I have to try and do something else with my life, just in case my writing never reaches the wide audience I hope it does.
That being said, I’ve also found success in a novel I tried writing a few years ago. I’ve refined the story and scraped off the excess fat to turn it into something streamlined and clever, something with a real message. I knew it was never going to be an abandoned project because I’ve got an A4 journal filled with notes and history and all sorts, but it was nice to stumble back into it in such a nice way. I tried my hand at my fantasy epic, but I feel like that story still hasn’t matured enough to become anything real. This story however, tentatively titled The Last Courier, is something that I think could really gain some traction.
Yes, I often like to indulge myself a mock-up cover when I’m excited about a project.
This is my return to form now. Refocusing attention on Haunt, juggling some work on The Last Courier when I feel like writing something new, and all the while keeping my eye on the prize. I’m just going to stay true to myself and always keep pushing to pursue my passion.
And to close this “return to form”, here is a throwback Thursday picture of me from when I was either 16 or 17 years old.
This will not be on the inside cover of my first successful novel. Well… maybe it will.